Two years ago now
Two years ago.
The way I am standing right now
The same way I stood
Two years ago
Two years ago, I met You
Another you
A you before the you happened
A you I had hope for
A You that I knew.
“I think I love you.”
Is that so?
Is this a feeling You really want to know?
You say yes,
You say yes.
As time flew away as it always loves to do
Things felt brighter
Things felt better
Something felt wrong though
I didn’t know what back then
As my eyes were covered by that sin you
You
Used to spit.
But yet either way, here we fuckin are
Your arm linked with mine
Your eyes saying that you like me but
God is that true?
If there’s a God please see my letters through
I wrote them with my
Blood
Sweat and Tears
I close my eyes and suddenly everything’s Different
That warm feeling got me breathing too heavy
It’s choking me
I don’t like the feeling
When I said answer my prayers
God, I didn’t mean literally.
And now you’re screaming at me
That I’ve gone too far
That I’ve gone too far?
You think I’m the one who’s gone too far???
“You act like such a critic”
No baby I’m a Star
You act like you’re a god
And that’s why you’re so Gone!
Why won’t you wake up?!
Why won’t you wake up?
And now I’m scared
Not cus I cared
Or you’re not there
But because I know what you’re capable of
I know you’re Aware.
You’re petty
You’re messed up
You’ll tell everyone here I’m a Fuck up
So if I don’t show up
Tell my friends I loved them
With the Bitten Bits
I got left of my heart
I want you to know, just before I go
Every time you’re fully engulfed in that fantasy of yours
When you have a crowd of people praising you
Treating you like the Lord
Smiles on their faces, filled with joy
Tears to their eyes from your presence
“Oh my oh my how graceful you are!!”
How poetic.
I’ll be there.
I’ll be there in the background.
There in spirit
With a scowl to get rid of your Delusional Merit
To make sure you truly snap back in place.
Make you get out of this phase.
Before you, boy, glare at me
And before you, girl, stare at me
This poem isn’t about you
It’s about me.